My 4 Year Old Cried Herself to Sleep..... And Other Facts About My Life

You want some honest truths? Good, because tonight I am all about honest truths.

For example, Aftyn crying herself to sleep. Why? Because she wants to move back to Massachusetts.
She brought this up to me earlier today. And cried then too. I had simply asked her why she kept switching chairs in primary today during singing and sharing time. (I just got a calling to be a teacher in Jr. primary so I sit a few rows behind her class.) She told me she couldn't see our chorister because of the visitors she had in her class and how next week she just wanted it to be the normal number of kids in her class (3 in total). Not sure why the visitors bothered her but I'm just guessing that she's having a hard time with change right now. My parents who we are currently staying with are out of town helping some of my siblings. Could that be part of the problem? I don't know but I'm sensing that could be part of it. I can't help but feel a little guilty that in some way I have perpetuated that and will continue to do so as our family is about to change in the next 10 weeks. I'm hoping that starting preschool in 2 days will help her to have a normally scheduled activity just for her that will help her find a sense of belonging in this life we now lead.

Moving forward, more truths. Reed just accepted a new position at work. Because of this we may be moving a few weeks after this baby comes. And we don't know where yet because we actually have a few choices of cities we could live. Aftyn is going to hate moving again and even worse it's not back to Massachusetts.

This baby is coming too fast and also entirely too slow all at the same time. I haven't decided yet what my getting through labor plan is yet. I would like to do the Bradley method again, but haven't had ANY time to go to my in-laws house to find my book and then spend HOURS of time reviewing and re-reading and practicing all the skills I need to make that happen. That makes me very anxious about this impending birth. I'm really trying HARD to look forward instead to seeing this cute little girly who makes my belly wiggle and squirm.

I am getting to the point in pregnancy where I just feel huge. I'm not in too much pain, thankfully, just a few aches and pains here and there for which I am grateful.Still sleeping well.  So I'm huge, I feel like it will take me forever to get back to being skinny and I'm discouraged because I still have 7 1/2 weeks before I'm full term and I wish it was more like 4. I know, waa waa waa. I should be grateful it's not longer!
I sound like a real whine-fest tonight.

Bronwyn and Aftyn are growing and changing so much. Aftyn loves now to use her imagination in play with dollies and animals and all kinds of things. It's so much fun to watch! She is constantly telling me how much she loves me as she wraps her arms around me for a hug. She is such a good example and always strives to do the right thing as long as she knows what  that is. :) Currently she likes to "wrestle" with Bronwyn which drives me nuts because she basically lays on Bronwyn and squishes her and then Bronwyn squeals because it hurts. But I think Bronwyn is encouraging her when we're not looking so it's really her fault. Siblings. They are just so fun. ;)

Bronwyn is at that age where kids just say the funniest things without meaning to be funny so you have to hide your smiles and laughter while giving them the impression you're taking them completely serious. She still takes 2-3 hour naps every afternoon and even ASKS to take them! I feel so spoiled and lucky. Also, she is a much happier girl because of those long hours of rest. And she still manages to go to bed by 8-8:30. She is so affectionate and loving, if you say something is hurting, she will come up and kiss it even if you didn't ask her to! She is so considerate and caring and mindful of others.  She L-O-V-E-S fruit. She hasn't found one she doesn't love and she is a much more adventurous eater than Aftyn.  Aftyn is getting MUCH better about trying food. Recently we discovered cucumbers make her throw up. LOL. But at least she tried it!

I am in the middle of sewing blankets for our newest girly, a blessing dress for her and a new diaper bag. I'm trying to hurry and get it all done but my swelling ankles aren't helping and my faltering energy stores certainly don't make me all that productive some days. But my goal is to get us all settled in over the next week before my parents come back so that we are as prepared as can be until our Baby Patience is born. It'll happen. Because the alternative is too awful to think about.