Sorry it has been so long since I updated my blog, but I have had good reason. Really. After much deliberation, I have decided to share what has kept me so busy. While I was having so much fun in Michigan with my sister and her family, I found out that Reed and I were going to have a baby! We were both so excited. It was an indescribable feeling of elation and happiness, and yet caution on my part because I have been having some issues with my body, but I figured everything must be okay, because I was feeling pretty good. Things were good for about a week, and then, last Sunday, on that last Sunday in March, I started having some really heavy bleeding, and just knew that I was having a miscarriage. I read about them online, and from a doctors website read that there was nothing you can do to stop a miscarriage. If it was going to happen, it was going to happen. So, finally on Thursday, I started having some very painful cramping and bleeding, and my doctor confirmed that I was most likely having a miscarriage. It really happened. It wasn't the way I would have liked the whole thing to end, but sometimes things happen without our permission. I have been in a lot of physical pain since Thursday with cramping and other types of pains, but today was the first day I can say I had no cramping. I feel back to my normal self, and Reed and I are planning on trying again in a few months per doctors orders. We are okay, but sad, about the miscarriage. I just figure that we had something to learn from this situation. We may not know what it is now, but if nothing else, it helps us to be more compassionate of others who may experience the same type of loss.
So, today, I got back to my exercise routine that I gave up the day after I found out I was pregnant. I am PLANNING on running a half marathon this summer. For sure. I am excited about being able to start again with my running goals, and for now, it will keep me motivated and occupied long enough to get past the next couple of months until Reed and I can start thinking about babies again. By the way, today is the one year anniversary of the day Reed proposed to me. That was a sweet day. :) And it's also our 9-month anniversary. Only 3 more months to go and it's a year! Reed just got home from school, so I'm off to catch up on his day.
3 comments:
Sorry you've had to go through that. It is not a fun experience.
Oh Alysa, I just found your blog. I'm so sorry to hear your sad news. How hard, to be so excited and then have to go through all the sadness, disappointment, and physical pain. I sincerely sympathize and am so sorry for your loss. We will keep you and Reed in our prayers. Thank you for sharing.
Yay, you guys have a blog! I found it today on Brian and Kamber's blog. I am so sad to read this post and am really sorry for you both. I really admire your happy nature and positive attitude, Alysa. We, too, will keep you and Reed in our prayers. We love you! I bet your running goal will help the next couple of months to pass by quickly!
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