Day 6 - Triggers

Had a great walk yesterday morning, with meals that were spot on until about 3 pm. Reed left yesterday, as he often has to, to drive elsewhere for work stuff. He ended up being out of town last night as well and will be coming home this morning. But I realized something rather important. When Reed goes out of town and it's harder for me to have a quiet moment for sanity's sake or someone to back me up when all 3 kids are having emotional meltdowns at the same time, I turn to treats. I can instantly tell you where any junk food in the house is. It's amazing! It's like a radar or something.
     I don't know if you read this blog, but I find it rather interesting. www.themoments we stand.com
That is what got me thinking about it. She wrote a post about triggers for her and it really got me thinking. I've got to figure out healthy alternatives to my triggers.

Anyway, after a couple of reaches to junk food, I finally pulled out of that mode. Right around the time all the kids went to bed. ;) I drank a couple of really big glasses of water knowing I didn't want to feel like crap because of what I'd eaten, and had some good phone conversations with my husband. I felt much better. But this morning I feel disappointed. And grateful for the run I'm going on later because I need it to kind of let go of my frustrations and pent up energy. Seriously, someday I need a treadmill at my house so I can run  and have my kids safely with me. Runs are the best way for me to find serenity in frustrating situations and moments when I feel a lot of pressure to perform. LOL

Today will be a better day. I'm hopping right back into the saddle and acting like yesterday never happened. I'm grateful to be having a girls night tonight with one of my friends here. Those too are sanity savers.

Bronwyn Conversations Overheard

B: I'm not gluten free, I'm Bronwyn!

A: No, you're gluten free Bronwyn!

B: I'm not gluten free, I'm Bronwyn!

A: No you're gluten free Bronwyn!

B: *something indistinct was said here*

A:  I'm gluten free??

LOL 

Mirren is Growing Up - in Pictures

All my girls have worn these cute pajamas. Had to get a picture of her in them.

I finally finished Mirren's blanket on the day she turned 6 months. She loves it!

Here's what the middle looks like. Here's the story. See the little, hard to see thing hanging from the right side of the tree. It's a cocoon. And the butterflies to the left of the tree represent the rest of us. She was our cocoon waiting to come out and be a beautiful butterfly! :)

She had been rolling, hence the blanket all wrapped around her torso

Day 5 - I Can't Believe This is Working!

Hello my friends!

   Day 5 was a good day. Perfectly clean eating day, went for my run tonight and ran the whole mile in a little over 10 minutes which is an improved time for me. Yay!!!

  I have to tell you, I really didn't think I'd last this long. But it's nice thinking that people are cheering me along. Even if they aren't, don't tell me because I'm just pretending that they are.

Had a great talk with a friend today over the phone. That and a group meeting I went to tonight that is for birthmothers and women looking to place their unborn babies. I had the chance to have a good hash out session with the guy in charge and I left feeling so supported. And then the neighbor who just had a baby 5 days ago called us to ask us our opinions about how to dress their baby for bedtime. When did we become baby experts?!? That was unexpected and left me feeling kind of pleased that they felt so confident in our abilities.   Anyhow, I guess I'm trying to say it was just one of those everything just kind of went right today days. I love days like that. 

Day 4 - Swimming Lessons, Teething and Shots Oh My!

Okay, it's early in the day to be recording this but I went walking this morning for about 35 minutes. And had 2 great meals!! :) I'll add more at the end of today.

  I got Aftyn signed up for her swimming lessons today. Woot! That's our 2 oldest in swimming lessons. They both got swimsuits and swimming lessons for their birthdays, along with other small items.  I think it should be fun. I'm glad they're taking lessons from 2 different places. It might be a bit harried but it will be worth it. They only overlap by one week, so basically we'll be doing straight swimming lessons for 3 weeks. I'm excited. I think the girls will like it.

Mirren and her teething issues had some serious problems this morning. Right after I had fed Mirren and left to go walking, Reed walked in on the biggest diaper blowout Mirren has ever had. All of her bedding and her onesie is currently in the wash and evidently her binky was also involved. Lucky guy to have found that. :)  By the way, that is really not normal for this girl. She rarely has a blowout. I can maybe count on one hand the number of times that has happened. Thankfully.

Her eyes do what my eyes do. One gets smaller than the other sometimes when I smile. But you cannot deny what a sweet little smile she has!

 And last but not least, Aftyn got her 5 year shots this morning. As the nurse came at her with the needle, she tensed up and started saying, "I'm nervous" and other such things. She and I counted through each shot and when they were done I think she felt a lot better and wondered what she was worrying about. She did great! She is in the 58% for her weight and 89% for her height. She's such a funny girl. We made a quick trip to the dollar store to pick up a few things and I thoroughly enjoyed spending time with her. She is getting so grown up and really thinks about things. I sure love her. She even, of her own accord, chose to get a treat she could share with Bronwyn. What a kind sister.

Day 3 - Memorial Day

I woke up this morning and went for my 1 mile run. I ran about half of it and walked the other half. I was still feeling tired from last nights super long walk around the falls. I probably should have just run tonight but I had a feeling if I waited I wouldn't get my run done so on the other hand I'm glad I just got out this morning and did it.

I ate great today with lots of water until we had our Memorial Day picnic/dinner. I didn't go overboard. I felt like I ate within reason, with lots of healthy things like salad and watermelon. A handful of chips (small handful), about 1/2 cup of potato salad, and 1/2 cup of jello were my splurges. I could tell afterward though that the extra food hurt my stomach because I'm used to smaller meals.

I'm slowly started to get back to the point of remembering how nice it is to eat small frequent meals with lots of water. My body feels so light when I do that. I like that feeling. Also, I'm tired of gaining and losing the same "starter" 5 pounds. I want to smash through that weight and instead lose 20. But I'm taking it one day at a time and not getting ahead of myself like I'm prone to doing.

Aftyn has to go to the doctor tomorrow for her 5 year check up and shots. Poor thing. I talked to her tonight about it to help prepare her since her appointment is first thing in the morning.  She seems to feel okay about the shots but let's wait and see what happens tomorrow. ;)

Tonight after dinner we went to the park and the girls had lots of fun. Aftyn is such a funny girl. She so wants to make friends quickly but is unsure how to go about it. Once she settles in and has friends inviting her to play, she fits right in.  Reed and I were laughing at her and her funny antics. Bronwyn is totally different. She just joins right in and quickly becomes a part of things.

Also tonight at the park, Mirren was sitting and playing in her carseat. The angle was perfect so that I could clearly see two little lumps situated perfectly in the bottom of her gums. It kind of explains how screamy she has been lately. That's the only way I can describe what happens when she gets overly hungry or tired, she has this ear piercing high pitched scream/cry. It sounds like we're torturing her but she's just really mad. And when she cries like that she's usually crying real tears. What a girl.

Day 2

Ate great today! Frequent small meals, okay-ish with water, nice long evening walk with my family around the falls and temple grounds. We really enjoyed our walk. Something about being outdoors more really is awesome.
I think Reed and I have been in survival mode for so long, we just got used to eating crap food because it was quick food. Now that I'm becoming more aware of this, it's time to slow down and enjoy the things we eat, the time we spend as a family and not feel like we have to be gearing up with sugar or other stuff to make it through whatever is coming next in our day. I really want to slow down and enjoy this summer. I want to have lots of fun stuff planned for our older girls that will help them to make more friends and feel more a part of things. I'm so excited for this summer. It has so much potential. :D